Remember the times..

Remember the times we used to spend in school at breaks just hanging around and talk about anything that comes up into our minds

Remember the times we spent every Saturday sitting apart in church choir practice without others knowing what’s going on with us in the beginning

Remember the times we used to go out for movies and you would always want me to hold your hands from beginning until the ending.

Remember the times when we played badminton and you would always laugh and smile in embarrassment when you miss a hit and then giving me the look to indicate to me to give you a better return

Remember the times at night when you always get upset because I forgot to send you a goodnight text and mornings too

Remember the times when we quarrel that you always cry and make me look like the bad guy

Remember the times when it took great pride and humbleness in saying that we’re sorry first and then accepting the apologies and promising a change

Remember the times when we have bad days we still never fail to cheer ourselves up just by talking for hours

Remember the times when my mum scolded me because I called you too much and the phone bill was so high and you wanted to pay me

Remember the day that I left you cried your eyes out in front of my family and relatives because you thought you may never see me again

Remember the day that I first called you from New Zealand you broke into tears in a matter of seconds because you missed me

Remember the day that I first joined the Malaysian Club I was so happy I talked about it to you so much that most of the conversation was 99% me and did not have a chance to talk when I wanted to put down but still you were ok with it

Remember the day when I got you the first gift from New Zealand you were so happy and delighted you couldn’t take your eyes of it or leave it alone

Remember the day I returned from New Zealand you came straight to my house and gave me a big hug and stayed for the evening just to catch up after one and a half years being distant

Remember the day we went bowling and you beat me in your very first time

Remember the day that we went to Sushi King and ate RM30 worth of food and still was hungry

Remember the day that I sent you off to KL and told you now I know how you felt when I left for NZ

Soon, you will be leaving Malaysia for real, this time, to a higher stage in life. I will not forget all the times we spent together and apart. You love runs deep in my veins and down in my heart. The bond we have is inseparable at any cost. One thing is to love with your head, so much more different when loving with your heart. I will continue to pray everyday that our love and relationship continues to grow and many ways and reflect the love that God has gave us because without Him, there wouldn’t have been us, not for this long. The challenges we face and go through, God put them in place because He knows we are capable of pushing through. I will count the days until your time has come to go to the States and wish you a good time preparing for it. You’re a big girl now and you have to learn to take care of yourself already =)

Remember the times and days we had in 3 years? They will come again………..soon

Yours truly,

Penguin

Time is so silent

I woke up at 8am today and sat in my room until now, which reads 11.32pm. This is the 1^st time in a long time that I have not gone out of the house. For the past 2 and a half weeks I have gotten out of bed by 7am and off I go to university library by 9am. That was my routine. Today that routine was broken and how glad I was to be able to not worry about time at all. Getting out of bed as I wish, eating breakfast and enjoying it, taking my shower without rushing and just walking around the house knowing missing the bus wouldn’t matter. I had to sacrifice it for exam period but today wasn’t to be. Part of deciding to stay in bed and at home was because it was windy and raining outside. Also, my study partner felt the same way too and not want to get wet and be subjected to the wind. Mind you I have NOT stepped out of the house all day yet. Not even to feel what the wind was like! Gosh I’m so pathetic am I not? Doesn’t matter.

My morning was spent playing games and chilling out before I actually put my mind to study. It’s such a challenge to get yourself to study at home, especially in your own room where the bed lies inches away and the internet is staring at you saying, “Please use me!!” Nevertheless I got to do some study but honestly, efficiency wasn’t at the peak. Library atmosphere still works best for studying with intense focus and attention. Time at home was spent mostly being distracted. After one slide I could see myself picking up the guitar, which was what I exactly did. If it’s not that, it’s playing computer games. Being discipline at home really stinks. It just doesn’t work as easy as words can say. I admire and salute those who can. Really do. The target is there which is to study but the tools are not in place: Atmosphere and motivation.

Time becomes very still as you watch your clock tick. Everything is silent too. That applies to my home because I was the only one. Put these 2 together, it becomes boredom. It’s like time is waiting for you instead. All I want to say is thank you to my study partner(s) during this 3 week period. Being indirectly present at the library motivated me to study and concentrate because watching you all study helped too. Conclusion? I had the best study period in my life. Consistent study at the library helped me prepared for my exam. The 2 papers I had already, they were awesome and I couldn’t be more confident about it. I pray that yours are the same too and that the results you get will be satisfying.