Eureka 'Moment'

I have a lot of things to blog about but when it comes to penning things down, I say, “I’ve got nothing to blog about.” It’s one of those nights where you just want to let your feelings be written out in words, but feel lazy to. The night is now, and the time…… a few days down the road. (Sigh). It’s nearing the end of semester which is why it’s much easier to have time to reflect about stuff that happens now. Pressure of exams have been lifted, 2 down and a remainder to go on Thursday. For tonight, I would just like to dedicate my prayers to the few and far between.

To my mum,

That the Lord may take care of you, bless you with good health and spirit. That you may find seek god closer everyday. I pray to the Lord that He can forgive me for the wrongs I’ve done to you in my 19 years being under your care. I’ve held grudges, scream back, cursed etc but I know what you do, you do because you love me and I’m grateful and thankful for ALL the things you’ve put me through. I would not take back any single day from my lifetime because by your guidance and care, I am what I am today, to be able to have a good education, life, responsibility and matured thinking that I may not have if I weren’t your child. The pain you had to go through for years ago years to come, I pray that the Lord holds you through it.

To my dad,

That the Lord may look over him and bring him back to the hands of God. That the Lord may bless him with good health and strength to live life in the eyes of God. I pray to God that He may also forgive me for the mistakes I’ve done against you. Your sacrifice has made me who I am today. You are my role-model in growing up. With my friends, I’ve never failed to say, “My dad is….” Because of the person you are. I pray that He may always look upon you and keep our family from danger and bring is closer to Him and one another.

To my brother and sister,

That the Lord may also bless you with His gifts and show you both what He wants from you. All the arguments and differences we have, I would not trade them away for anything else. The silence at home doesn’t show who we are and I’m thankful we are family. We fight because we love one another, which is why I thanked the Lord for it. You instill challenges in our life so we may grow closer. Let us grow even closer as we move away from teen-hood.

To my Tiger,

That you may always be strong to live day to day as the Lord has given you. I pray that our time apart may be useful for our time in the future because “absence makes the heart grow fonder”. You’ve grown stronger each day that I could see the difference for all these years. I’m very proud of you and thankful for the Lord in helping us move forward. I pray that each day that passes without you is a day spent with you with great love.

To my friends,

Many wrongs I’ve done to you. I pray that God forgives me as I find the opportunity to seek forgiveness from you all in the future. I pray that the Lord guides you each day towards your goals and not deviate from God’s eyes.

AMEN.

31st May - The Newlyweds

2 posts in a night. I’m on fire. Only because I’m bored and felt the social responsibility to spread happiness. Happiness should be shared all round and not be kept to yourself.

The Date was 31^st May 2008, and the place was St. Patrick’s Cathedral. My friend Sylvia and James were both married that day. It was my 1^st time attending a wedding to someone close. It wasn’t only for one of them, it was for both. I know both James and Sylvia, so can I say I’ve attended Sylvia and James’s wedding?

“So who’s wedding did you go to this year’s?”

“My friend James and another friend Sylvia”

“Wow, who are their partners?”

“Sylvia and James”

It was a touching event to see. Marriage is a commitment of a lifetime to your partners. To watch them ready for commitment and going through the ‘3 Rings’ of marriage was just a memorable thing. Indeed, I’m happy and sad at the same time. When your friend gets married, they’ll leave behind all the usual things they used to do with you: The usual hang-out spot, the meals, the socializing times and also the hard times. Friendship ends abruptly once entering marriage life. Things eventually change. As you grow older, your circle of friends diminishes. It’s inevitable but unfortunate. You lose something to gain another. On a bright side of life, many more opportunities and challenges lie ahead. The wake of putting in front your life becomes a priority. Fast forward, you get many more commitments than just your spouses. Bills and work becomes your friend and they stick to you.

I used to have this skepticism when I was in secondary school, that when a friend has a girlfriend/boyfriend, he/she will no longer be part of ‘the gang’. Until this day, it stands true. A long story trimmed short, my friends A and B sort of ‘left’ me in Form 3 when they hook up with girls of their own. It wasn’t literally left, but more of, giving less attention. We weren’t as close as we used to be already. At each break-time, they would tag off to hang out with their newly found friend, and I’m left in class in search of people to hang out with. It was a tough thing to go through seeing myself discarded. It hurt so much at a stage where I hated the 2 girls because they robbed us of our close friendship. Since then until now, I have not seen the trail of A and B nor have I had the interests in contacting them at all. Partly because I still cannot forgive the fact that something so precious was taken away due to the fact it’s inevitable. Not only did they not introduce their gf’s friends, they cut off their side of friendship and joined the other side. I guess it was a good experience I had with them. I would not wish to have the time back. It was a really tough challenge, put forth by God, to tell me what life would soon be. A lifetime challenge.

Nonetheless, I vowed not to step into the bread crumbs that they made, that Sabrina sometimes ask me, “Why you hang out with so and so often but not me??” That’s probably why dear. I don't want to neglect my friends like how they neglect me. I've only got one more thing to work on now, which is to get to know your friends.

Usually I sidetrack and indeed I have! It’s supposed to be a happy post! Anyways, congratulations to James and Sylvia. Hope you like..ahem ahem…love, my present=).

OCF/Close friend group photo



The newlyweds



Trying to be in the spotlight =p